It was never that my old ways
Of spontaneous deception weren’t serving me
They could get me whatever I wanted
But sooner or later, the rip tide comes
Thrusts you onto the ground, face full of sand
The sobs seemed unending
The force of it all nearly killed me
These poor souls, and who was I to parade
Around, stepping on hearts, carelessly?
I started to want different things
Things I was so unfamiliar with
I almost gave up, gave in to the madness
Almost handed my soul to the devil
Because I thought he deserved it
And I deserved him
But then, I stood up
Sometimes with such vague conviction
That this time, from here on out
I would never let another difficulty
I would help
Those who need me
My soul strained, chained down, drowned
By my passive, side-stepping ways
I don’t usually confront the issues swirling in my head
Making me dizzy, nauseous, beauty really is pain
As my heart trembles forward, brave for a heart
To eat the fiber of life as it’s been starved
Bumpy, jerky roller coaster
Finally. Throw out this extra weight
I’d love to be light enough to fly
Loyalty to what?
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Who am I to sit here wondering,
pondering the somber side of things?
When life has just begun, the spring’s here wandering, my time has come.
I’ll sing the song you left unsung.
Boundaries coming undone. They really weighed a ton.
My heart’s still in it for the fun.